thisisbenlai

About Me:
ladies and gentlemen my name ben lai,
call me wrongly i will poke your eye.
make me angry i promise i make you fly,
fly through the endless deep blue sky.

at first you may think i'm as cold as ice,
once you know me you will think i'm nice.
actually i'm just an average guy,
a trustworthy person you can rely.

i love to eat beef meat,
and 'fruit plus' the sweet.
my wallet feels the heat,
i'm always on the hot seat.

i like electronic devices,
but i hate their steep prices.
how much more sacrifices,
until my income suffices?

i like to disturb friends,
it is now the latest trend.
if i happen to offend,
i will quickly make amends.

i know this is lame,
it will bring me shame.
there is no one to frame,
for i am the only one to blame.

by: ben lai.

9/8/09
boring sia.
wanted to go orchard buy clothing.
but then think again lunch how?
nobody to eat with.
i never like to eat alone.
shop or go anywhere alone is ok.
but eat alone for me is cannot lol.
eat alone like so miserable.
only can look straight,
eat.
look left or right,
eat.
lol like cock sia.
so i asked dennis to come accompany me eat.
i end up eating at taka's fisheros.

later i ended up alone.
and i roamed around orchard.
bought a shirt from burberry for $180.
bought a jeans from topman for $103.
argh! $300 damage including lunch.

later at night went to yee teng's 21st bday.
splendid party it was.
so many people were there.
food was wonderful.
think everyone there had a blast.

pok kai already.
must start saving for my 32inch lcd tv.
why the i.t show so long.
10th-13th september.
about a month more to go.

drafted out my wishlist to get by this year end.
ben lai's top 5 most wanted.
5. king of fighter xii ps3 - $75
4. razer mamba mouse - $199
3. louis vuitton belt - $615
2. zhng my room - $?
1. 32inch samsung series 5 full hd lcd tv - $799
(0. new pc with 'enthusiast' grade components) - $4k)

what can i say?
what a tough course it was.
actually its quite manageable.
only in the beginning life was hell.
so many lectures and tests.
and in the midst of it were fast marches.
and i still remember the navigation march.
60km in total and my team completed in 27hrs.

then came the training for the missions.
fun but taxing as well.
deep inside enemy lines.
not affording to make any stupid sounds.
heart pounding tremendously.

prisoner of war training was the worst.
worst experience in my life to date.
felt like shit for the duration.
but felt like king after it.

and finally after the two grueling months,
i am recce trained!

nowadays blardie busy man.
somemore my recce course going to start.
its next monday by the way.
so its 3 more days to hell.
everyday now passes by so fast.
most of the time pondering over whether i can make it.
how sia.
i very scared.
that aside,
i have watched Blood the movie.


A vampire named Saya, who is part of covert government agency that hunts and destroys demons in a post-WWII Japan, is inserted in a military school to discover which one of her classmates is a demon is disguise.

overall i think this movie ok ok only.
average story plot and average fighting scenes.
one minus point is the computer graphics for the blood.
very very bad.
to be frank,
the reason i watched this movie is becoz of gianna jun.
so chio sia.
somemore last time act my sassy girl.
woots.

another week wasted as usual.
plus its an off week.
but its all wasted.
wasted.
wasted.
wasted!
haven done much really.
yet in a blink of an eye,
all is lost.
tomorrow night booking in already.
recce course going to start already.
how?
i scared later i die inside.
anyways just wanted to comment on the
2 movies which i have watched this week.
firstly,


Security guard Larry Daley infiltrates the Smithsonian Institute in order to rescue Jedediah and Octavius, who have been shipped to the museum by mistake.

this show ok ok only.
just make you laugh.
nothing much about the story line.
recommended to watch if you need to cheer up?

next,


When a meteorite from outer space hits a young woman and turns her into a giant monster, she is taken to a secret government compound where she meets a ragtag group of monsters also rounded up over the years.

this show also not bad la.
but i slept while watching.
oops maybe i am tired.
no no its not a boring show.
seriously.
good to watch with your girlfriend if she like cartoon?
well thats all folks.

super sian man.
dunno why i go volunteer my off day away.
volunteered with my fren to do luggage party.
means i have to report to camp wednesday night,
and help to load and unload all the duffle bags,
for the people going taiwan for exercise.
i think got over 200+ duffle bags lor.
blardie heavy and we were sweating like profusely.
heng the lorry uncle so nice drop us at whitesands,
where i can walk home in like less than 10 mins.
that basically sums up the sacrifice which i made.
(i also missed champions league final lor. knn.)
for the reward part,
my mother bought me an iphone!

though it will be better if it was the 16gb one.
nonetheless its good enuf.
better than nothing at all.
now being at home again,
i can start to rot til my recce commander course start.
sian i just remembered i december going taiwan too.
please dun put me in luggage party.
thanks.

freaking hell,
spent the whole of last week in camp,
practicing for something known as mock intrusion.
well i can only say its an exhibition for the public,
as i am not allowed to reveal things like that haha.
anyways i think that much time was wasted,
when waiting for the rehearsals to start.
wait here wait there,
then rush here rush there.
army life is so chaotic.
i think if the army was much for efficient,
our ns life can be cut short to maybe a year,
instead of the 2 years forced down on us.
well with bad things come good things.
the public which experienced our exhibition
gave us very good feedback,
as can be seen from the smiles on their faces.
our oc gave us 4 days off!
yipee!
tues, wed, thurs, fri off!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i have to still book in tonight and book out tmr.
what the crap.

Oh my darling,
Oh my darling,
Oh my darling,
Hear me sing.
You are lovely,
What a cutie,
You are always dear to me.

Darling why you so naughty,
Just like our dear monkey.
Let us make a deal,
You must not skip any meal.

If you promise to behave,
I will forever be your slave.
I will do your bidding,
It's you I'm only loving.

Each of us take turns,
To show care and concern.
But now it will always be,
Showers of love from me.

Oh my darling,
Oh my darling,
Oh my darling,
Hear me sing.
Monkey love you,
Ben Lai love you,
We are always there for you!

lol really too bored and nothing to do.
hence the creation of this lame poem.
enjoy.

damn sian nowadays.
time passes really slow.
days of rotting away in my bunk.
together with another 13 bunk mates.
all of us rotting inside.
when will ord come and take us away.
i know the day will come.
but it feels so long.

and now, i have to start preparing for
my recce commander course,
which is starting on 15th june.
good luck to me.
shag like shit days will come,
mental stress like shit will come,
and not much free time shit will come.
someone save me from the torment of ns!

since jeep course has ended,
i am posted back to maju camp.
not used to the life there however.
its been a over a month since i did any exercise.
its all exercise and rehearsing for exhibitions
ever since the start of this week.
well, at least the food is better that the food
indented for us in the jeep course.
and guess what, i have to help the mp's do their
guard duty for sunday.
bad luck, really.

ahh.
the pictures really bring back memories.
though it was only a few days ago,
i am starting to miss jeep course (minus scoldings).





jeep course's quote,
Never Say Die, JEEP!

finally my one month jeep course has ended.
overall minus the stupid scoldings,
the course was simply wonderful.
i would like to thank my favorite instructor,
mr alex lim, for guiding me and advising me.
i wish him all the best to him and his family.
so now what, sunday night must go back camp le.
damn sian sia.
anyways, i bought mr alex lim a present.
pictures might be uploaded later.
cheers.

alrighty!
after days of remedial driving,
all the fatigue i have accumulated,
all the mental stress i had to endure,
i have finally passed my driving test!
congratulations to myself.
then again, thinking back the duration of my test.
the tester is very screwed up.
used vulgarities sia.
but nevermind la, i can take it.
after all i am a soldier now.
all i can do is only to suck thumb.
i wan to faster ord.
still got 17 more months.
sian 1/2.

sian man. today is a bad bad day.
first rain until i all drenched.
then later driving test failed.
anyhow switch lanes in bends.
haha. then driving also kena scold.
really sucks man.
retest this friday but i think maybe
history will repeat itself once again.
sian.
i go sleep already.
stupid driving.

wah lan oi. siao liao la.
tomorrow driving test dunno whether can make it.
really hope i can though, then no need kena scold le.
but then again, say easy, when doing very hard.
hai. how how how? very nervous already.
my mind keep thinking over it with anxiety.
let the good Lord bless me tomorrow.
pray hard hard that the traffic tomorrow smooth smooth.

anyways something to talk and discuss about.
its about this chocolate spread named nutella.
i'm sure many of you out there ate it even once.



why this thing so addictive ar?
mei huey has been consuming it almost everyday now.
scary addictive chocolate spread.
goes very well with bread.
even i myself is becoming addicted to it.
what a dangerous product to have.
whats more, the price of nutella has increase.
ntuc was selling it @ sgd 3.90 for the medium sized.
now, it is selling @ sgd 4.90.
really wonder why the increase in it.
think maybe i should consider avoiding it,
and start to train myself again.
i feel unhealthy and weak now.
maybe drop 20 push ups also might not tahan liao.
haha. go back unit i sure die. plus rcc course coming.
how?

About a guy whose life didn't quite turn out how he wanted it to and wishes he could go back to high school and change it. He wakes up one day and is seventeen again and gets the chance to rewrite his life.

this show seriously quite good sia.
starting part damn boring i keep yawning.
but i changed my mind suddenly after seeing,
how the story changed and evolved.
heartwarming and romantic story.
nabei i hate zac efron.
mei huey keep saying he so handsome,
rich plus got $ to buy good car. (audi r8 somemore)
me leh? not handsome plus no $.
only got my own "kah" (leg) as mode of transport.
inferior! next time must work hard and show her!
but after that she say she only love me. (heart meltz)

sian tomorrow still got driving.
sure kena scold scold scold.
plus tuesday is the big big day.
blardie driving test.
think i can pass or not?
can or cannot?
its up to the traffic condition of the stupid ubi road.

today also quite a special day.
its my father's birthday.
never really celebrated for him.
he is also out for the whole day.
maybe he went and celebrated himself.
oh well, at least i managed to give him a birthday present.
a Coach wallet for him.
he keep saying dun want dun want.
but i insisted until he say "next time dun waste $".
then he went out.
still, i felt proud and happy to be his son.

time to play WarioWare: Smooth Moves.
its a freaking good wii game.

woohoo, finally parking test is over.
all thats left in the dreaded driving,
is the driving test itself.
happy that i only have one ordeal to go,
but i still keep getting scolded badly,
by my horrendous driving instructor.
hopefully i can pass the test at my first attempt,
then i wont have to see his blardie face anymore.
these few days very tired and busy.
driving can suck the life force out of you.
other than that the only happiest day this week,
was yesterday.
went to tampines one with mei huey as she took half day off,
actually we are supposed to have carl's jr for dinner,
but the stupid place dunno why never open.
furthermore, it did not even include a sign or reason,
as to why it did not open.
went to walk walk around the mall,
quite boring though and the stupid uniqlo is still packed with crowds.
finally we chose cafe cartel to have dinner.
long long time never eat there already,
so go inside and ordered.
actually the food is ok ok only.
not very fantastic.
haha.
after that went home to recuperate for the next day.
stupid driving fault.

yay today i passed my hsp test at my first attempt!
hurrah hurrah..
too tired to type any longer.
sleep now!

argh!
i desperately need a cable to connect
my wii to my pc monitor.
its a rca to vga cable.
actually i found it somewhere near my house.
a shop named "Self-Fix DIY" at whitesands.
the problem however is not finding the cable.
its the hefty price tag for it.
freaking $32 just a piece of rubber and copper.
to anyone who happens to read my journal,
please let me know if you have a cheaper alternative,
or where to get a cheaper cable.
any comments will be greatly appreciated.

sian tommorrow got highway situation procedure test,
it is something like what you call advanced theory.
only more difficult and tough.
after all, our theory instructor informed us,
that the passing rate is only 30+%.
all i can say is that good luck to myself tomorrow,
for i will be the first one to get tested.
stupid serial no.
shit!

basically nothing much to talk about today.
yesterday went for stupid driving in the morning,
and played pool with dennis, andre and vincent in the afternoon.
we played until 6+, stayed at adrian's house until 8+.
after that i caught a movie with mei huey.
a rather "wtf?" or "huh?" or speechless.


A teacher opens a time capsule that has been dug up at his son's
elementary school; in it are some chilling predictions -- some that have already occurred and others that are about to -- that lead him to believe his family plays a role in the events that are about to unfold.

after watching this movie and watching it till the end,
i feel that this movie does not relate to anything scientific at all.
or rather, i feel it relates to the bible.
the book of the revelations,
where God will create a new heaven and earth,
and will destroy the current world that we have.
so as to rid all the wrong in the world right now.
very scary.